For Now
..while your visage still lurks in my mind, you'll remain my incandescent resolve in every adversity I'll face---the most radiant catalyst that keeps me going. For now, nothing can cease my mind to go back where this started. For now, no barricades nor screeching halts can bar how everything with you replays in my memory --- how those short-lived moments I put on reruns make me still uptight hitherto. Whenever I return to or accidentally find myself standing at those specific spots where we stood, where we walked, where we talked, or where we laughed, regret plays--- caving in every pore wherever it wants to fit. For now, let me... just let me stay overwhelmed with this harrowing yet addicting grief. Yes, I expect my denouement might plunge six-feet under that pitch-black pit, where strayed feelings populate, where doors are shut, and where I'll lodge for a while before I completely unbuckle these poignancies. I don't care if I'd get hurt hard, because I don